Saturday, December 1, 2012

The Eternity in the Temporariness

        Starbucks couldn't wait a second to change their pumpkin latte poster to the new Christmas drink one; TCU Christmas tree couldn't wait a second to be lighted again; those tree-shaped Chocolates, peppermint-flavored EVERYTHING couldn't wait a second to be put on the shelf, so I know, it's the end of the year again.
I was at RUF the other Wednesday night, while being so fulfilled with the Christmas joy, I felt a little bit weird...not sad, just weird. 
        It feels like yesterday when the first time I went to RUF, feeling all excited and curious. And it feels like yesterday when I started helping Ryan to organize the music team, I remember how frustrated I was when I had to schedule rehearsal time, when our team members can't show up to rehearsals and when our music doesn't sound good. Although I still recall how frustrated and sassy I was, although I gave myself a long break not to play in the music team for awhile, while I was singing Christmas carol at the RUF the other night, I kept having those flashback of us trying to make music together, of Caleb and I trying to figure out the chord, of Cuyler trying to comfort me from being over-frustrated. And suddenly, I had this feeling of losing something very important that I never knew I had until I lost them, and that one very special thing is called 'time'. A lot of us always tend to have a fear of losing certain things or people we have in our lives, we love them so much that we are so afraid of even thinking about not having them in our life. The more we care about these things, the more we are scared that we will lose control over these things and we will lose them. And the truth is, we are never the one who's in control, it could be comforting from time to time, but for the most part, we cannot stand not being in control over things. 'Time' is one of the great examples, no matter we are enjoying it or not, time is always flying, unlike sand in the palm, which at least stays for couple second, time does not pause, so while we are having this second, it's going away at the same time. So do we ever 'HAVE TIME'? How exactly do we lose something we never even truly owned? We never truly owned time, we just live in it. We're not missing 'time', we are just missing that old self who was living in that old time, we are just missing that one smile from that old him, we are just missing that one moment of happiness, excitement or whatever else you care.
It's sad but time itself really tells us one thing, which is nothing is eternal. Weather changes, cloud moves, sun rises up sets down, leaves turn from green to yellow and then fall, flowers bloom and fade, people are born and people die...BUT guess what, there is one eternal thing in the world--JESUS brought us the GOOD news---He is eternal and His love to us is EVERLASTING! WOW! Like none-stop? Yes, He's started to love us even way before we were born, and His love continues even when sins or when we try to turn away from him. We could just live our life to the fullest, don't have to worry about trying to pin anything down because we know that we have the most beautiful person who makes everything beautiful in our life who will NEVER EVER leave us. And one day, after we finish our time on the earth, He will come and take us home, that will not be the end of the story, it will just be another start of this love story.